Hello Family,
Suicide is never an easy thing to discuss, rather, it is in some ways, socially discouraged because of the stigma in which still surrounds it. It is through this vlog, and sharing my story, that I hope to change that. I really don’t give a damn about putting myself out there like that, if it helps just one person, then it’s worth it.
Many times we may express our sorrow or discomfort in life without ever expressing our true feelings. Without saying the taboo words of “I’m feeling suicidal.” It’s these words that are most important to tell, yet we don’t because we fear judgment, lack of understanding, loss of our jobs, partners, etc. It was only through my own experience, that I came to understand that there are people who do care, can help, and most of all, can help you in private if you so wish.
I called the National Suicide Prevention Hotline (1-800-273-8255) and spoke with a woman named Susan. Susan ultimately gave me the courage to seek further help from mental healthcare professionals, in which undoubtedly saved my life. Susan was a huge source of inspiration for me in starting this channel. I’m indebted to her in so many ways.
If you are uncomfortable with talking to your loved ones or friends, please feel free to reach out to me via email or social media. I’m here for you. If you are uncomfortable with that, then please call the resources listed below. There is not a time or age limit in which you have to be in order to call. ANYONE can call! There are also local chaplains and grief counselors in which you may contact in almost every city. Use these invaluable resources! They’re there for you whenever you need them! I highly encourage you to tell your family and friends so they may give you the love and support you need. Don’t suffer alone. This may all sound cliche, but it’s simply the truth. You do not need to be suffering from a mental illness to feel suicidal, and regardless if you are or aren’t, there is still help. Trust me I would know.
As an arising psychologist, I have learned the importance of talking about these subjects because of how common people suffer from them. It’s part of life.
Family, parents, and friends, please pay attention to the subtle or drastic behavioral changes displayed by your loved ones. Talk to them, and encourage an open line of communication. Please do not resort to the mere thought that they are just seeking attention or are experiencing puberty, mood swings, etc. This commonly a fatal mistake. Get involved!
Let’s keep this discussion going.
Wishing you many blessings – Blair
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Does she ever show her face?
This is absolutely a terrible subject but I thank this woman for speaking up on it I just like knowing that other people besides me are willing to stand up and lend a hand to those in a rough time sometimes it is always good to know there is a group of people who will be there to stop anyone from making that decision of going out into the light so soon. It brings a tear to my eye cause not to recently a friend of mine had a tragedy happen and it wasn’t okay and it really made me rethink how I just need to be around people stop making excuses and just go and make sure everything is okay cause I want to know I will get to see that person again
No offense but why are you not showing your face on the camera? I just bumped up onto your channel btw and I'm new here! No offense, just asking btw.
I WANHT TOO SEE YOU BEATIFULY FACE PLISS…
Good issue my dear. But , why don't you show your face ??
Your are perfect, thanks you do this, next video when com?
It's very crazy how someone's story can trigger you to think back to old memories.
First I am glad you are still here, as I have watched some videos and appreciate you and your messages. I can honestly say I am battling right now and have been for a while. I am a veteran and I am a single father and I have had stresses from failed life experiences both personal and professional . More professional right now more than ever as I reached a life dream and bought a home for me and my child with the hope of living out the rest of my life finally with some semblance of normalcy. I swiftly lost my job and the hunt for a new one isn't going well at all. I am scared to lose it all, scared to submerge back onto the old struggles of just existing. I suffer from depression and I have been betrayed by my own body. I lost my energy and cognitive skills as the depression eats away at the person I was. I feel trapped. Forward is seemingly an endless trail of loss, while I fight to save it all. Enjoyment in things is dwindled. I bought a bike to see if I can spark the excitement of life and fulfill a dream of mine to have one. As mentioned I would say I am passive right now as thoughts creep in, but I dont want to hurt my family. I cant do that to my daughter who I told I would always be there for her. I dont feel I am worthy of life. I always try to deflect with the gift of life being something I wish I had the receipt for so i can go back and exchange for a new one. There is real fear in being labelled and fear of removing some things that I have(gun owner) because of the media and social stigma with mental illness. I worry that the power to suppress the feeling of not doing anything to myself , will eventually fade and the darkness will swallow me. I lost many of my veteran friends to suicide, I have seen the face of war. I try to put it to people like this" We suffer in silence to keep the horrors we know from becoming the nightmare you will find out about to preserve your peace" . Right now, nothing can be more true for me . I am supposed to guide my daughter , how can I do that when I cant get out from under this ? I was meant to save her from the struggle, but the cost was I carry it all.
Sorry for the rant. I just felt the pain in your voice and I know I feel that pain too. The scariest question is always though, When will it ever end? Feels like never.
Hi Blair, I'm a new subscriber to your channel and tbh I only first joined because you're super hot biker girl 😍 lol but I really love you're thoughts and opinions as well as how caring you are. I've quickly become a huge fan of you! Love this video as well, I think everyone has had times where suicide has crossed their mind. Please, please, please though can you wear more protective gear on your motorbike! I'm sure you can still manage to look sexy in armour. I used to watch Annette Carrion's videos and was so sad when she died riding, motorbikes are dangerous please fully gear up I'd never want this to happen to you, I look forward to your videos too much!
Thank you